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forever breathes the lonely word
release in spring 2024

this drowning light 2020
released by navigators yard records

my broken face (2000)
this year (2000)
the colour of water (2001)
you packed your things (2002)
narcolepsy lake (2002)
broken like fingers and thumbs (2003)
a darkness of moons – piano instrumental (2006)
you packed your things – san francisco version (2006)
a darkness of moons – alt. version (2007)
the side of her inexhaustible heart – celeste version (2011)
nine variation II (2012)
how scared I am to live – chantal acda demo (2016)
my thirst for you is where I hide – chantal acda demo (2016)
the sea has many voices (2018)

the indestructibility of the already felled (2020)
schole records

piano, guitar, voice, organic sounds

safe within your arms
kogarashi (木枯らし)
silences are all the words I have
away
kintsugi (金継ぎ)
my thirst for you is where I hide
these nights without you
aiseki (哀惜)
how scared I am to live
what you could not know
kyōshū (郷愁)

what matters most (2018)
released by karaoke kalk

this is a ambient collaboration with our friends dag rosenqvist & emanuele errante.

a quiet, dark and intense meditation on the reality that all is broken and things which are lost can be found

constanța, 1992
now that you know
de ziekte van emile
nothing is as effective as defeat
shadows are more accurate than truth
now I am lost
falling apart in stages
I survive only in someone else
broken things are the glue of the world
someday this pain will be useful to you

wintersong
w/quentin sirjacq (2016)
schole records

be my love
close enough to tears
all that I can hold near
this is my way of saying that I am sorry
wintersong
how safe we must seem
the lepers companion
a comfortable lie
last flare from a desperate shipwreck
in the stillness of this night
to make you whole again

this is a live recording taken from a japanese tour by chris and quentin in march 2015

the tour was really amazing and we think we have captured something really special in this recording
it will be available in the following formats:

CD
coloured 180g vinyl (mottled grey)

the sea is never full (2016)
released by karaoke kalk

this is an ambient collaboration with our friends vampillia, recorded as fragments of struggle and pain over the past 3 years. this LP is about the disaster which took place in fukushima, which was on our minds as we did a tour the year before in Japan and played at some places on the coast. the fukushima disaster broke our hearts and this musical journey is the only way we knew how to process that pain. majestically choreographed into two individual ‘suites’ over 20 minutes in length by david, winter 2015.

tracklisting:

vinyl:
side a – The sea is never full {part I}
side b – The sea is never full {part II}

cd:
01. The sea is never full {part I}
02. The sea is never full {part II}
03. nagisa / isonade
04. shōrōbune / funayūrei

the language of abandoned lives
w/quentin sirjacq (2014)

hand made, self release

this is a second disc of demo’s and out takes from the ‘there is calm to be done’ sessions

initial home demos and a series of songs from the record re:composed by david (which are ace!!!)

all come with three 12cm x 12cm prints and an index card (as below cover image)

available in limited number of 300 only, all hand made and individually numbered

songs:

there is calm to be done (remixed part 1)
the tears that bind us to this place (clips remix)
be my love (iphone demo)
flat seat (synthesizer remix)
nu dat deze dag voorbij is (extended mix)
dronning maud land (underwater remix)
there is calm to be done (remixed part 2)
swallowed by this loss (car radio demo)
committing to uncertainty (solo guitar version)
there is calm to be done (remixed part 3)
swallowed by this loss (receiver excerpt)

there is calm to be done
w/quentin sirjacq (2014)

released by karaoke kalk in europe and schole in japan

this is my way of saying that I am sorry
flat seat
in the stillness of this night
committing to uncertainty
nu dat deze dag voorbij is
dronning maud land
ask the dusk
be my love
nothing is gone
the tears that bind us to this place
the world touches me too hard
there is calm to be done
I miss the dust
onzekerheid (japanese version only)

accompanying music from other rooms (2012)

hand made, self release

this is a second disc of demo’s and out takes from the ‘an almost silent life’ sessions
available in limited number of 300 only, all hand made and individually numbered

beginning is easy, continuing is hard
an almost silent life (electric version)
I know your desolate places (acoustic version)
if you’ve never had to run away (sparse version)
on the way to the bridge
I see your tears (acoustic version)
laatste ademtocht voor jij mij verlaat
last flare of a desperate shipwreck (acoustic version)

an almost silent life (2012)
released by glitterhouse

I see your tears
if you’ve never had to run away
an almost silent life
last flare from a desperate shipwreck
everything lies
lumen
I recoiled so violently I almost disappeared
a comfortable lie
wanneer de pijn ons doet scheiden
don’t cry
I know your desolate places
top rocker
without you

the side of her inexhaustible heart
w/quentin sirjacq (2011)
released by glitterhouse

released nov 7 2011 on glitterhouse
string quartet record written around a suite of
songs to show johanna how much she means to me. recorded with quentin sirjacq in paris this is a double cd/vinyl

as long as forever is (part I)
where the tears go
the side of her inexhaustible heart
(part I)
(part II)
(part III)
you will take all that I love
the side of her inexhaustible heart (part IV)
becoming less and less

yes we will suffer (part I)
to make you whole again
the side of her inexhaustible heart (part V)
how safe we must seem
yes we will suffer
(part II)
(part III)
(part IV)
as long as forever is (part II)

the hearts of empty (2011)
released by karaoke kalk

this is the music that was meant to be a counterpart to ‘the end of trying’ recorded over a couple of days by david in his house it’s a late night smokey jazz side to dakota suite

released june 2011 karaoke kalk

easy steps
catalunya
namiko
the hearts of empty
how to stop a moving body
the ladder
eskimo nebula
m-theory
underpowered
vermont canyon road
congruences
the black pyramid
legend of the skies
the basin

the north green down (2010)
released by lidar records
(sold out but I we never received a penny from Lidar, please be aware when purchasing anything from this label in future…although I think they are now defunct!)

this is a collaborative project with emanuele errante

remastered double vinyl version released january 22nd 2016 on karaoke kalk **

the north green down part I
leegte
a hymn to haruki murakami
le viti del mondo
the north green down part II
the north green down part III
a worn out life (with cello)
away from this silence
the north green down part IV
they could feel the end of all things
nobody is ever safe
a loveless moment
no greater pain
the north green down part V
instincts reduced to silence **
the north green down part VI
a worn out life
wat we kwijt zijn
the north green down part VII

**remastered vinyl version includes this out take from the original sessions

dakota suite | emanuele errante
the north green down

In August 2009, Johanna and I took what we didn’t know then would be our last holiday with our sister-in-law, Hannah. We knew that Hannah had cancer and that it was most likely going to take her from us and that moment was something we could feel draw ever closer.

We all went to a place loved by our family for many years, Southwold in Suffolk. It was clear that Hannah was in pain.

We were walking back from the ocean, for Southwold lies on the sea, through a part of Southwold called ‘the north green’. I was overwhelmed by what I could feel being taken from us, every step we took represented a small death. I knew then that I would miss her.

During that walk with Hannah through the north green I felt there the beginnings of the music you hear on this record as the main ‘north green down’ theme and knew I had to keep going with this tribute to her. I sent the basic piano and guitar pieces I had recorded at home to Emanuele. I had previously bought his records and felt in him a sympathetic soul who would feel the weight of this music and make it more fitting for the purpose I had in mind, namely a suite of hymnal pieces for Hannah.

Hannah was a beautiful, selfless and nurturing woman.

This record is for her.

vallisa (2010)
glitterhouse records

in november 2009 I played a show in the beautiful vallisa chapel in bari, italy. this was a solo show with the magnificent david darling on cello and quentin sirjacq on piano. the show was one of the highlights of my entire musical life. so we decided to release it!

very early one morning on old road
the north green down
falling apart II
things we lost along the way
one day without harming you
a worn out life
introduction
des êtres disparus
hands swollen with grace
remember

the night just keeps coming in (2009)
released by karaoke kalk

the end of trying remixed track for track by artists including machinefabriek, peter broderick loscil, the boats and greg haines. and many others…

one day without harming you – machinefabriek
this failing sea – peter broderick
hands swollen with grace – jasper leyland
a quietly gathering tragedy – hauschka
all the love I had was not enough – elegi
very early one morning on old road – deaf center
the end of trying part I – arve henricksen
the end of trying part II – greg haines
the end of trying part III – hannu
the end of trying part IV – tape
een langzaam lekkende wond – swod
the night keeps coming in – the boats
how could you let me go – jacaszek
second hand light – emanuele errante
things we lost along the way – loscil
z-cars – dakota suite & nick hawley

for more information go to navigators yard records

re-released on karaoke kalk in 2010 in limited edition CD/ 180 gram vinyl editions

the end of trying (2009)
released by karaoke kalk

one day without harming you
this failing sea
hands swollen with grace
a quietly gathering tragedy
all the love I had was not enough
very early one morning on old road
the end of trying part I
the end of trying part II
the end of trying part III
the end of trying part IV
een langzaam lekkende wond
the night keeps coming in
how could you let me go
second hand light
things we lost along the way
z-cars

this is the collaboration with the mighty david darling on cello and your favourite dakota men on piano’s.

waiting for the dawn to crawl through and take away your life (2007)
released by glitterhouse

never much to say
a darkness of moons
uw wanhopige vrees
because our lie breathes differently
I don’t understand your medicine
early century maple
all your hopes gone cold
I’m leaving you
over a loveless winter
brittle with sorrow
all that I can hold near

this cd came with a dvd called “wintersong : a film
on dakota suite” by the amazing benny jaberg and pascal hoffmann

for more details on the film go to
www.wintersong.ch

this river only brings poison (2003)
released by glitterhouse (europe), planting seeds (USA) and painted sky records (japan)

the lepers companion
boats in a sunken ocean
the finished river
lets share wounds
verdriet
sand fools the shoreline
lets be on our own
the ferris wheels of winter
we made it rain
how safe we must seem
pillows in the water
matching eyes and hands
the space around your sleeping

the american/japanese edition of this cd came with the following bonus tracks:

love gun
stedelijk
matching eyes and hands (guitar/piano version)
how safe we must seem (demo)

blown about moon (2002)
released by houston party records

the things we carry (home demo)
mood indigo
episode
autobiography
divided (che single)
somewhere
just like jesus
wintersong
news from nowhere
the world I breathe (for johanna)
blue 7
to have wondered (1943-1996)
colder
just like jesus (alt version)
radiosong (home demo)

wintersong
crippled world
harley reeves
one for the shoe shine man
divided
ornamental
leaving home
johannasong
over
everything is wrong
december 8th 1980
I can feel your disease
the last thing she wanted
loss

basically the first two cd’s released on a double cd…any excuse to do more artwork!!!

the way I am sick (2002)
released by glitterhouse

the way I am sick
my awakening
falling apart I
the emptied ocean
just below the surface
lesseps (for strings)
before she was on her own
black river falls
falling apart II

limited edition japanese only release in hard board vinyl style packaging

the european editions included a second disc collecting all non navigators yard instrumental pieces together on an extra cd

your vigour for life appals me (part 1)
one for the shoeshine man
loss
about when we met
lesseps (original version)
to have wondered (1943 – 1996)
december 8th 1980
episode
I turned away so that I might not see
bereavement and loss

morning lake forever (2001)
released by glitterhouse and houston party records

chapel rain
turk 1
your vigour for life appals me (part 1)
the streets were all I saw
lesseps
because I could not wait for death
about when we met

signal hill (2000)
released by glitterhouse

the cost of living
close enough to tears
clean linen sheets
signal hill
a view of the sea
riverside
raining somewhere
morning heavy
I turned away so that I might not see
when skies are grey

navigators yard (1999)
released by glitterhouse

before the bitter wind
a history of silence
elegy for a funeral (entrance)
adam
dhow
inconsequential
but a poor reflection I
when I think of myself dead
I am losing you
chimes
cancer and you
wave of sorrow
this man
unfolding
but a poor reflection II
one Year
elegy for a funeral (departure)

songs for a barbed wire fence (1999)
released by amos recordings & glitterhouse

alone with everybody (1998)
released by glitterhouse

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